How me? I don’t know!

Posted: May 13, 2012 in Guruji, Wonder
Ever doubtful of how a Guru could find me,
but you caught me unawares.
Neither perfect nor among the best,
You chose me!
How me?
 
You knew I would be slow n falter.
With a snake coiled around the planets,
Mars not helping either,
my stars were not exalted!
How me?
 
Flushing so much enthusiasm and joy,
accelerating my life with fun and wisdom,
you made me experience the radha and krishna!
How me?
 
Awesome time in the last 5 years,
giving me a glimpse of what I am capable of,
empowered through your support,
I move ahead.
How me?
 
Tears of gratitude have flown,
I love you so much, dont know why?
Why do I miss you, I don’t know!
What have I done for this? I dont know!
Why is this happening? I dont know!
 
Love,
Suman.
 

Disclaimer – The following lines bear no resemblance to any living person. They are purely imaginary! Any such comparisons are purely coincidental :)

People who know tamil, if you find any mistakes, do drop in a comment/mail me :)

என்கே உள்ளாய் அன்பே, என்கே உள்ளாய்?
உன்னை தேடி எழு கடல் தான்டிவிட்டேண் ,
ஏன் இந்த கண்ணாமுச்சி?
நான் இப்பொழுது சொர்ன்து விட்டேண் .
என்கே உள்ளாய் அன்பே, என்கே உள்ளாய்?

எந் வேதனை கன்டு, இயற்கை அக்கறைகொன்டு, என்னை கேட்டது…

“என்ன ஆச்சு”?

அன்த கடல், மலை, மரன்கல், மிருகன்கல் என்னை கேட்டது…”யாரை தெடிகிரை”?

“என் அன்பை தெடிகிறெண்”, நான் சொல்ல…

“எப்படி இர்ருபால் அவள்”?

அடடா நான் என்ன கூர? எதை கூர?

“அவள் கண்கள், வானத்தின் ஆழம்…”
“அவள் பார்வை, அர்ஜுனனின் அம்பு…”
“அவள் உதடு, ரொஜா இதழ்…”
“அவள் சிரிப்பு, குயில் பாட்டு…”
“அவள் பர்கல், கடல் முத்துகல்…”
“அவள் நிறம், சன்தனம்…”
“அவள் கூன்தல், கடல் அலை…”
“அன்த மல்லிகை வீஸும் மண்ம்…”
“அவள் நடை, அன்த மெக்கதை பொல…”
“அவள்… ஆஹ்! கூரிகொன்டெ பொகலாம்…”

இதை கெட்டபின் இயர்கை கன்களிள் என்ன ஆனன்தம்! என்ன ஆச்சரியம்!
“இவள் பொல் ஒருத்தியை நான் கன்டதில்லை”…

மனது உடைன்து பொனதெ…
என்கே உள்ளாய் அன்பே, என்கே உள்ளாய்?
என் தெடுதல் தொடர்கிரது…

ஆன்புல்ல,
சுமன்.

A loose translation is given below -

Where art thou, my love? Where art thou?
I crossed the seven seas in search of you…
Enough of this hide and seek…
I am tired…
Where art thou, my love? Where art thou?

Looking at my despair, nature asked,”What happened”?

The oceans, mountains, trees and animals asked,”Whom are you searching for”?

“I am searching for my love”, I replied.

“How does she look”?

“Oh! What shall I say? How do I describe?”

“Eyes as deep as the oceans…”
“Her look is like Arjuna’s arrow…”
“Lips resembling rose petals…”
“Her laughter is like birds chirping…”
“Wow!, the pearly whites…”
“Sandal paste like complexion…”
…with wavy fragrant hair…”
“Walks like a cloud…”
“She is…Oh! I am at a loss of words!”

Having heard this, nature was overjoyed but also surprised. “I have never seen such a girl”.

My heart shattered.
Where art thou, my love? Where art thou?
My search continues…

Love,
Suman.

Many pals in Manipal…

Posted: April 9, 2012 in Events, Guruji, Travel

I had been to Manipal last week to conduct a YES!+ course. 54 Manipalites were SoHummed, my biggest course till date. All thanks to Tanu who could not make it ;) .

“When you care for the society, nature itself bends down to serve you” these words by Guruji H.H.Sri Sri Ravishankar were echoing in my head throughout. Reason? I did not even have to move my little finger for anything. Everything I needed just landed in my lap. The best and cutest volunteers - Rimi, Shrey, Toyaj, Naman, Prachi and many more were just there for me. Rimi was our Annapoorneshwari for the whole week. They took care of my stay, food, travel and what not. Felt like Guruji ;) . I have never laughed so much ever. The course ended on a super duper high!

One of the volunteers Harshpreeth has penned down a few words about it.

http://manipalblog.com/2012/04/yes-more-than-just-the-art-of-living-a-photo-story/

On Saturday, 42 people participated in the Yogathon in Manipal. 37 of them won the GOLD certificate. Some people who have not done any AOL course also participated and were able to complete 108 suryanamaskars!!! Pure grace in its fullest glory :) .

Mookambika temple

Sunday marked the visit to Kollur to see Sri Mookambika devi. It is believed that Adi Shankaracharya had a vision of Sri Mookambika Devi and installed the deity here.

Sri Mookambika Devi

Just behind the sanctum sanctorum, is an idol of Shankaracharya where we meditated. Despite the sound and clamour inside the temple, the meditation was deep and still. We then had lunch served as prasad adjacent to the temple. The ultra hot, molten boiling rice(I mean every word of this…) with delicious sambar and rasam filled our starving stomachs. Everyone were licking their fingers clean :) .

Udupi Krishna mutt

We then proceeded to Udupi to see Manamohana aka Krishna. The route from Kollur to Udupi was the bumpiest to say the least. The sun added to the effect. Almost wornout we went inside the mutt. As soon as I entered the mutt, a sense of freshness took over me. All tiredness just evaporated in his presence.

Shri Krishna

Witnessed a glowing Krishna within a dimly lit sanctum santorum. Felt so relaxed and calm. Something inside had settled down. The elephant in the temple looked so sattvic with its chandan and kumkum. The lake within the temple was refreshing. Feeling grateful we returned back to Manipal.

Love,

Suman.

Happiieee Birthdaaay Vini…

Posted: April 9, 2012 in Birthdays

A late afternoon Sadhana popped up this idea. Wish u a very joyful birthday!

Love,

Suman.

And so it happened…

Posted: March 31, 2012 in Events, Music

Recently I got the oppurtunity to participate in a historic event organised by Art of living and Ranjini Kalakendra, titled ‘Sahasra Veena Jhenkara’ which showcased a grand symphony of 1,110 Veena players playing Veena all together on one platform in Bangalore. It was presided by H.H.Sri Sri Ravi Shankar and also the Chief Minister of Karnataka.

Pic courtesy: Vanshul Arora

YES! for all those who didnt know, I do play the Veena(the instrument). But when did it all begin? Lets go into the history a lill bit…Dec 2008 to be precise. I started to learn the Veena, the divine instrument played by goddess Saraswati.

I was contemplating on learning it from a very long time due to following reasons -

1. I had read somewhere that a person even belonging to the lowest of castes; if he has a veena in his hand, he will reach heaven.
2. My friend Akhilesh plays the veena. I heard him play it one day and I was so awed and overjoyed by it that I wanted to learn it right away. You can listen to him playing Narayana Hari Om here.
3. The music of the vibrating strings does some magic to explain which I am at a loss of words.
But even now I am not sure why I wanted to learn. Just wanted to learn, thats it!! Playing it gives me a feeling that I have known the instrument for a very long time. I am not sure whether I had learnt it in my previous birth :-) .
 
I spoke with Akhilesh and also his teacher. Things came together and so off to the shop which sells Veenas. Akhilesh had a big hand in choosing the right one for me. It was also reviewed by four more people including my guru. Finally it was decided and I bought it. A pretty old one maybe about 25-30 years old or maybe more. Thats what the experts say. In the case of Veena, the saying – “Old is Gold” fits perfectly since the instrument would have good or better Nada after being played for decades together. Lucky enough to get one so quickly.
I was learning it regularly for an year…and slowly the usual story began to unfold. Laziness, loss of interest and so on…and I stopped playing it, let alone going for the classes. But at the back of my mind I always wanted to continue.

Now fast forward 2 years… A regular evening in Feb 2012, I was tired after office work and KK calls me.

KK – “You know to play the veena right?”

I hesitantly said, “Yes”.

KK – “Ok, So you will play in the ‘Sahasra Veena Jhenkara’ along with 1007 more people”.

“1008 people! No, No. I have not been in touch for 2 years, I cant!”, I replied

KK – “Just shut up and come. You have time to practice”.

At this moment Gayatri takes over. She says,”Suman, its enough if you can just hold the veena properly. You can play Sa, Ri, Ga, Ma… right? There are only 7 songs. You can manage”.

“7 Songs! Om Namah Shivay!” Finally after 5 mins, I agreed. Practice started and continued every now and then.

Too much work in office, irregular practice and irregular sadhana drove me to an emotional decision of pulling out of the event. This drew flak from a person and I got my ass kicked (well almost) by sharing this decision. The decision is reverted and I decide to practice well.

 Photo sessions was in full swing during the rehearsal event itself ;)

Gayatri n I @ the stage rehearsal

Me :)

Finally the day arrived. Veena artistes had arrived from all over Karnataka. Veena vidwans and vidhushis decked the stage. Women of all age groups from 8 till 80 were dressed in cool blue/cream. Matching nailpolish, bindis, earrings and what not adorned them. Men were in pure white to beat the heat ;) .

A few pics from the event courtesy our brilliant photographer Vanshul Arora

The event was massive and I am glad that I got this oppurtunity.  It doesn’t come everyday! You can also watch the entire event here.

Love,

Suman.

जब गुरु संघ है, तो क्या घम है|
तुझसे दूर रहने का मन नहीं करता,
तुझसे दूर रहने का मन नहीं करता,
पास आ जाऊं तो मन,
बस मन नहीं रहता||
~
तेरी ठंडी छाया में,
निडर हैं हम|
चिंता और दुःख,
इनसे बेखबर हैं हम||
~
दुनिया घूमने की पुरानी आदत,
नहीं गयी तेरी|
मुझे कब घुमायेगा?
बस सवाल है यही||

H H Sri Sri Ravi Shankar

मैं कौन हूँ?
इस सवाल पे मुस्कुराता है तू|
तू कौन है?
यह न जाने, मुस्कुराने लगे हम||
~
साधना, सेवा और सत्संग,
इसकी सरगम में डूब जाना है|
सुख में सेवा और दुःख में त्याग,
इस सूत्र के संग, मेवा खाना है||

~
जब गुरु संघ है, तो क्या घम है|

प्रेम,
सुमन

Oh! My dear! Who are you?

Posted: March 14, 2012 in Poems, Wonder

Oh! My dear! Who are you?

Each one of your species,
triggers a desire.
I observe it and move on,
offering it on the pyre.

Wanting to possess,
is the thought.
Happiness is inbetween 2 events,
alas, I forgot!

Oh! My dear! Where are you?

Inspite of having a wife,
I want to refrain from a “regular” life.
A bigger goal in life,
is what I want you to look for.

Who are you?

Loosing my freedom,
is what I fear.
You have someone to support,
is what I hear.

Oh! My dear! Where are you?

Are you my responsibility?
is what I think.
What if I falter n fail,
makes me blink!

Everytime I want you near,
keep waiting, is what I hear.
Waiting for someone is frustration,
just waiting is meditation.

Love,

Suman.